Posted tagged ‘brain’

Mission Malfunction…!

August 23, 2011

sometimes i found happiness thinking of my redrawn strategies and changed gears!
Suddenly i will get involved in Holmsian thinking of philosophy(I used to call it so…Don’t care if othr ppl think something else…!!)all these happen just after getting my semester results..
What happened to me…?
What came over my typical brain which stood sensible during my intermediate ,3 years ago!
The ecstasy i have felt after excelling beyond my expectations ! I never knew then that it might be my swan song.!
As my performance in engineering is always far below my caliber!
Some turbulence which i had experienced during my 2-2 semester exams suddenly flashed before my eye balls.!
To be frank i’m at my wits end ..
In a desperate situation to strike back under any circumstances i have to strike back….
Get back to 70+
Tossing and turning emotions But all i knew that is i had to hold on…!
The support i’ve got from my fewest pals could be a good reason for my striking back.
Ofcourse for other ppl its nothing(71.2) But for me its something considerable thing of my life.!
I got that when i was a textaholic….
Atleast 400 sms’s daily i used to forward …
Every damn thing i received i used to forward.!
But there is some regular chat with two people whom i consider somewhat closer than others ..!
Its good to share experiences of studying ..
Hey I have selected these chapters what u gonna do chap….
can we find those chapters in that book..?
Was that book good enough..?
How many chapters u were going through..?
Ofcourse that was a silly thing…
But it builds some confidence..
Thanks to those two.!
But now every one had stopped texting…
even i had recovered from my textaholic state…!!
Only one who still text is Kittu only…
He remained same since 1st yr…!!
I have chosen this trade only to satisfy me endless love for machines..Still i’m infinite far from getting what i deserved..I have had the count of things that i dint had…
I was very impeccable at planning of course every one do..
and i was insane enough to fail at execution.!
And now there are no people to share them tooo.. 😦

Some times i feel like shouting ” A hell hound is outta thr to give u ppl a great hell..”
But the same thing of failing at execution scares me like anything….!
All i hope is that my life is busy in preparing something extra normal and large for me..
I ended up inn writing the same sentence as i always do…
“LET THE DESTINY TO PLAY ITS BELATED ROLE”
And there is something hot on the board for this summer….
” Some one is about to get caught in a tarantula’s web called Love..
He may get sucked outta his life again….
Increased instances of pirated emotions made me to think so…””

Lets see what this summer got for me
A Huge Gift box or The Same Size Pandora’s Box…!!!
And i have started another mission for 3-2 exams…
i.e Mission Malfunction…!!

Operation Wild October Morning….!!

August 23, 2011

The world had shown me ten million ways to hate

i thought they should be the ten million ways to love…..
I never knew that they are The Unique Ten million ways to f**k myself off….!
I guess most of men have a little private reserve of their own in some corner of their souls where they don’t welcome intruders…..!!
I lacked that…!!
And that made most of this crap…!!!
Yet The Word
“Wild October Morning”
Has got something significant…!
Tropical By Birth ,tropical By Nature…!
The ocotber, fall winter spring
Trees shed their leaves in the hope of new leaves….!!
In my life too
Some people exit from my diary and some new people enter…!!
I happened to knew from all my f*****g experience that It is me who has to keep the other people in my diary Happy….
Of course
Its me who need to stay happy through out My life history….
Losing my happienes for makin othr ppl to stay cool may end me up as dumbass…!
The word i always wanted to avoid is “AVOID”
When u r walkng along road smbdy may avoid u…
but heart feels like hell wen smbdy whom u fought , smiled and of course shared some inner most feelings …!!
This i never wanted to let happen…!!
It could be fair to exit from their territorial waters before being thrown out ..!!
Okay….
enough is enough….
Yes its always enough…
My creative brain(Used it very well in my INtermediate daz…!!)
and now i’m ” IN Term Idiot” to fell as a prey for some unfrank ,pirated emotions….!!
Yet most of my octane cylinders got emptied….
Buy i’m fortunate nough to have ppl lyk Avnsh,rajeev,krishna,reddy,akash…etc……
to refill those cylinders….!!
The first ever Flight of ASPIRATION AIRWAYS si ready to take its flight….!!
Injected with MAd Adrenaline….
Hope i cud end my show with flying colors….
Anyway dis May has marked few new ppl in my Diary
a cute little sister
and cute friend who had found littile interest in my LOST Mechanical diary crap…!
Nd no more inclusion of people suffering from Psyche Flu(a psychological version of Swine flu…!)
And Today is Rabia’s B’Day…
Happy B’day Rabia…!!
—– MooNY(My New Nickname..!!)

Emotional Asphyxiation And The Small Town Syndrome………!

August 23, 2011

It all started when i rushed towards her like a fly rushes towards a lamp..!

When i used to smoke my memory hush suddenly i happened to feel her intrusion..!
I never really knew den dis may have little importance in my experiment torn life.!
To much of experimenting with my life caused a severe disorderliness..!
Of course this disorderliness is not uncommon for me….
the happened like this…!!
Every time i felt like giving up writing these insane writings some body will just intrude and raises hopes of making it till the end…!!
When this girl came like an unexpected summer rain…
I welcomed it….
don’t know the reason but somehow my Detective ridden brain sensed foul play…!!
I found her reason rather accepting…!!
Morphed….
These were the feelins before few months…
And i came to accept The existence whole heartedly…!!
Everytime i think about someone i start my thinkin from my purposely wasted shoool daz..
When i used to be an introvert and every one used to call me a good boy and i was very much susceptible to the so called false emotions…
Well, That’s not the matter i really think about…
But it gives me some base for Lateral, philosophical thinking..!